CONQUEST.

Falling in love at 18 seems to be ideal.

At this age, one is no longer innocent of the ways of the world.

In fact, one is already preparing for the big battle called life. 

But, wait…

I was wrong.

I found out that there is no assurance that falling in love at a later age will make things easy.

Life is never easy, and so, loving…

All my ideas about how I want a relationship to be have become somewhat distorted.

Every night, before I fell asleep, I would always chant to myself,

“Tomorrow will be a new day."

But when I opened my eyes, my heart still ached.

Why can’t I just leave everything behind when I switch off my bedside lamp?

Why do I still have to wake up with the same feeling of dread?!

Somehow, when I was at a sane-r point in my life, I realized that “I have to move on!!!”

And in order to be happy again, I must first forgive. There, acceptance will follow.

Now, I have realized that commitment is necessary in a relationship.  Not because it will give me an authority to tell a person what I want to happen but because it makes me certain that whatever I am going to share will take us somewhere.

I may be wrong, but I firmly believe that love shouldn’t be limiting. It must allow the person involved to be who they are and to go on with their lives.

I have also learned not to expect anything because often times, expectations will only lead to disappointments since we do not have the same frame of mind.

Remember: Love is not something one asks for, it should be freely given.

 One love, one life time – that’s my wish.

And not a conquest after conquest.

My heart may be "empty' by now, but time will come...
Someone will fill this in.:)

My favorite cartoon movie! Not just because I love Russel,  but it gives  
me a hope that love can last. <3

PS: This song is for someone who broke my heart. Thank you because I really learned a lot.

Seriously. 


xoxo,
Joie